How to know it’s time for a change? I have been feeling unhappy with myself and my life for years. No matter how hard I’ve tried to make my life enjoyable, fight against complaining and feeling depressed and anxious and find the beauty and shine in my life I’ve always found myself from a hole feeling those feelings and complaining. I have gone through a lot in this life but now it really is time when I know I have no other choice but to make some big move in my life. I can’t strain anyone with my anxiousness anymore and I don’t want to! I know what I would like my life to be like but I just don’t know how to get there. I got to live for a dream for some short time but that dream wasn’t ment to stay in my life. It wasn’t my destiny.
Firstly I know it starts to be time to leave this little town where I live and a working place where I am very miserable (work colleagues and my apartment are nice but anything else really sucks). I have been thinking about leaving this place for years already but for some reason (tired of moving often and starting from the beginning and out of fear) I’ve stayed here. But now I feel I’m against a wall – either I’ll emotionally and mentally die here or I will just take my belongings, move to a new place and try in a new working place. It won’t change my life for the better instantly or maybe even at all but I think it’s still better than staying here.
So how to know you need to make a change in your life? You feel anxious, sad and angry all the time, you feel you are stuck, you are afraid if this is it (you are questioning if life just really is this gray and if feeling miserable all the time is called normal life), you don’t really get excited or interested about anything anymore, you are isolating yourself from social relationships and your life gets smaller and smaller all the time. Then it really is time to make a change! I know making big changes in your life is very stressful but if you are this low then it’s better to take the risk and try something new. Now I need to start to make a plan what will I do. Luckily there are people out there who are telling how they got their life back – people like Sonia Ricotti who wrote a book “Unsinkable”. I haven’t read it yet but I took part of her webinar called “Bounce back big”. Reading and hearing about other people who bounced back to life gives us hope.
Not easy but it is true what it says in the video. For me at the moment it is difficult to accept that no matter how much I loved someone they didn’t love me back as much. They wanted to give up. Trying to make my way up again.