This is difficult and important! I am now trying to find courage and a way to Finally find the real me and FINALLY start to create a life that really truly feels as my own (and not something that others have said I should do or not do etc.). I feel extreme anxious about this because at my age (soon 31 years) most people already have created and found their own life which they can now grow to become stronger and stronger. I’m afraid that the train has left me. BUT we can NEVER lose hope. Anything is possible in life… So let’s start to have courage to be who we are and chase our dreams. The famous actress Helen Mirren (72 years old) said once when they asked what she regrets in life that she should have said “F*** off” much more often 😀 Meaning that do not give a s**t what others think of you if something feels good to you. That is a great advice!
It is a word I have to remind myself often. It is a word that sometimes makes me angry and very irritated feeling it’s just a stupid cliché when people say “never lose your hope”. But in the end the saying is right – without hope life couldn’t continue. Again the word just came up to my mind and this time gave me a good feeling. There really is always hope and we have to keep on going forward, try to do our best in life and Hope that at some point the dream you have been dreaming of for so long can and will come true. We don’t know when – it may take some time but hope – it really keeps the meaning of your life alive. Someday – I HOPE – my dreams will come true.
I just have this Huge urge to explore this world – different places, different cultures, different kind of nature and everything. I have SO many ideas where to go and it is difficult for me to really stick with one plan and start to make that adventure to become a reality someday (hopefully sooner than later!). The freedays from work are limited so that’s the biggest thing hindering me from pursuing my dreams. (Also the psychological lock that questions if I really am allowed to be happy and live my life in my own way). I also want to use my holidays to go to meet my family, relatives and friends. So how to have time for all of these? 🙂 I’d like to go for example to explore Asian countries, South American countries (test my very basic Spanish skills. Yes I know they speak Portuguese in some countries), also North America would be interesting in many ways, visit countries in Africa AND visit Australia and New Zealand again. And, and, and… These dreams keep me alive in otherwise monotonous life where nothing happens – just work and being mostly by myself. I don’t know what to do with these dreams! 😀 Where to start and with whom. Time and money are limited. I just figured out one day that my dream job could be an explorer. I was born to learn and to find new things all the time. I was ready to settle down with a guy I was madly in love with but there were too many obstacles so maybe it wasn’t ment to be. Now I can start to chase after my dreams again – which is awesome.
Others buy houses, dogs, fancy cars and start a family. I run on my own searching for new things 🙂 Sometimes it feels very lonely. (I feel I haven’t achieved things people at my age usually have and I feel I am different so it’s difficult to find people who truly share the same passion as me). But I’ve noticed it is my way of living so I will try to keep this habit alive. I though really hope I will also find (and be able to keep) the love of my life. But in the meanwhile “Ladies and gentlemen, fasten your seat belts” 😀 ❤