Wanderlust

I just have this Huge urge to explore this world – different places, different cultures, different kind of nature and everything. I have SO many ideas where to go and it is difficult for me to really stick with one plan and start to make that adventure to become a reality someday (hopefully sooner than later!). The freedays from work are limited so that’s the biggest thing hindering me from pursuing my dreams. (Also the psychological lock that questions if I really am allowed to be happy and live my life in my own way). I also want to use my holidays to go to meet my family, relatives and friends. So how to have time for all of these? 🙂 I’d like to go for example to explore Asian countries, South American countries (test my very basic Spanish skills. Yes I know they speak Portuguese in some countries), also North America would be interesting in many ways, visit countries in Africa AND visit Australia and New Zealand again. And, and, and… These dreams keep me alive in otherwise monotonous life where nothing happens – just work and being mostly by myself. I don’t know what to do with these dreams! 😀 Where to start and with whom. Time and money are limited. I just figured out one day that my dream job could be an explorer. I was born to learn and to find new things all the time. I was ready to settle down with a guy I was madly in love with but there were too many obstacles so maybe it wasn’t ment to be. Now I can start to chase after my dreams again – which is awesome.
Others buy houses, dogs, fancy cars and start a family. I run on my own searching for new things 🙂 Sometimes it feels very lonely. (I feel I haven’t achieved things people at my age usually have and I feel I am different so it’s difficult to find people who truly share the same passion as me). But I’ve noticed it is my way of living so I will try to keep this habit alive. I though really hope I will also find (and be able to keep) the love of my life. But in the meanwhile “Ladies and gentlemen, fasten your seat belts” 😀 ❤

Dance it out

I tell you a secret. Everyone stumbles but then this life continues. 
No, no don’t stay in the darkness.

No one is alone here.

I have a lighter when comes dark.

Don’t care about rough life.

The scars will tell we were here. 

If it was Christmas or Midsummer

Dance it out, dance it out, dance it out.
One life. There’s no other change. 

Life teaches us

Life is difficult. We are constantly being taught new things – how to behave, what to say and how to say it ect etc. I once again was taught by my boss at work that no matter how much you think you deserve something and feel that now is your time to have something, you still have to be extremely humble and in a very kind and begging way to approach that subject. I am usually too kind and I have been letting things go through and not been often asking for my rights. Now that I am trying to learn to defend myself I am constantly being challenged and taught that you still have to be silent, peaceful and humble. Yes, I agree that is a better way for living than being screaming for your rights but I have to admit that I start to be tired. No matter what you do, say or how you just are there will always be someone(s) who want to correct your behavior, say what kind of words you should be using and even telling you how to live your life. I have earlier been saying that we should be tough (and I think we still in a way should be) but recently I have been taught again so many times that humility is the best way of living.

 

So just wanted to remind myself and others that we are stumbling all the time but we are also learning all the time. Let’s be tough AND humble 🙂 The happy medium is true. We will learn 🙂